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Letter
from Tbilisi
Rainy
Days In Georgia
Eduard
Shevardnadze is a Western hero.
What’s gone wrong in his own country?
By
Michael Specter
Late
on the afternoon of August 29, 1995, Eduard A.
Shevardnadze, the Georgian head of state, walked out
of the Parliament Building, in the capital city of
Tbilisi, and climbed into the back seat of his car for
a long‑awaited ride. He was about to sign a
document that he had thought he might never see: a
democratic constitution for his country. Georgia had
become an independent nation just four years earlier,
with the collapse of the Soviet Union; since then, it
had endured a civil war (over the separatist region of
Abkhazia) and two other serious uprisings. The
nation's economy had virtually collapsed, violence was
widespread, and relations with Russia were poisonous.
Yet
by that summer Georgians had begun to hope for better
times. The street fighting had ebbed, farmers were
working again, and Russia seemed to be leaving its
neighbor alone. Most of that progress was due to
Shevardnadze, who by force of will, coupled with an
uncanny ability to find consensus even among people
who seemed to detest one another, governed Georgia
then as he governs it today: decisively and alone.
The
constitution ceremony was scheduled to begin at 7 P.M.
But as Shevardnadze's car made its way from the
Parliament Building, a man perched in a nearby
apartment block detonated a remote‑control bomb
that set the vehicle on fire, sending shards of glass
through the air. Shevardnadze stumbled into the
street, stunned and bleeding. That night, Georgians
watched on television as he spoke from the hospital.
His face covered with cuts, Shevardnadze stared
vacantly at the camera and told the nation, "They
want the Mafia to run this country. They will not
succeed. This is the last act of terrorism in Georgia.
The whole nation will rise and raze them to the
ground."
It
was a remarkable performance, and much of what
Shevardnadze promised has come to pass.
Terrorism is no longer a daily thereat.
Parliament is run not by thugs but by a thirty-seven-year-old
democrat named Zurab Zhvania, who made his mark as an
environmental activist. What's more, Shevardnadze has
fashioned a lucrative deal with the West to send oil
from the Caspian Sea across Georgian territory,
turning the country into a station along a new Silk
Road. To achieve this success, Shevaidnadze drew on the
full and often contradictory
arsenal of his political talents: he was pragmatic enough
to negotiate with killers and ruthless enough
to side with
the most successful among them.
Georgia
today is a more tranquil place than it was
on that summer
day when the bomb went off - in no small part
because the century is,
in a sense, a highly dependent
duchy of
the United States. American leaders, for both
practical and sentimental reasons, revere
Shevardnadze. Last year, the United States provided
nearly a hundred and fifty million dollars in aid,
almost a third of the Georgian budget. Over the past
decade, only Israel has regularly received
significantly more money per person from Washington.
Despite Georgia's efforts to establish a democracy, in
other respects its progress has been slight: tax
revenues are anemic; and last year Transparency
International, an independent monitor of international
ethics, placed Georgia eighty‑fifth out of a
hundred on its list of the world's most corrupt
countries. Nearly everything that should be earned in
a free society through merit is blatantly for sale,
from college diplomas and drivers' licenses to the
right to vote.
Not
long ago, I asked
former Secretary of state
James A. Baker III why Georgia, with five
million people, was so vital to American interests.
Armenia has a far larger and more influential American
diaspora, and Azerbaijan has one of the world's great
reserves of oil. Baker told me that by 1991 it had
become clear to the Bush Administration that new
institutions were about to form out of the wreckage of
the Communist world, and that America had been handed
a rare opportunity to influence them. "If there
was one special place in that region, one country
above all that we knew we needed to help, it was
Georgia," Baker told me. "Getting the oil
out matters, and so does Georgia’s physical and
cultural position in the world. But obviously you
cannot think about that country without thinking about
Eduard Shevardnadze. I am not sure that the Cold War
could have ended peacefully without him. He changed
all our lives. And when we thought about that part of
the world we never forgot it. The man’s a hero.”
The
world first became aware of Shevardnadze in 1985 when
Mikhail Gorbachev, the new leader of the Soviet Union,
asked his old friend to replace Foreign Minister
Andrei Gromyko, one of the last of the hard-line
Soviets. One evening the previous winter, at Pitsunda,
a resort on the Black Sea coast favored by the Soviet
bosses, the two had spoken at length; and Gorbachev
had said, “We cannot go on living like this” –
in Soviet society. “Everything is rotten.”
Shevardnadze replied, “It has to be changed.”
Shevardnadze,
who is seventy-two, was an unlikely radical. He had
grown up in the rural Georgian village of Mamati in
the thirties, during the worst of the purge years. Yet
his allegiance to Stalin never wavered, and by the
time he was twenty, in 1948, he had joined the Party.
Shevardnadze, the youngest of five children, was a
talented student and his parents urged him to become a
doctor. Instead, he chose politics. He advanced
rapidly-by 1972, he had become the Georgian Party
leader ‑ not just because he shut down opponents
but also because he ran a harsh public campaign
against corruption.
Georgians
prospered during Soviet times, but they did so by
playing angles, avoiding rules, and breaking laws.
(Almost invariably, in Soviet films the mobsters were
Georgian.) Their produce, their wine, and even their
mineral water were prized in Moscow, which
opened
up many opportunities for bribery. Shevardnadze,
however, realized that an economy based on theft was
bound to fail. Not long after taking over as Party
boss, he called a meeting of his deputies and asked
them to raise their hands if they agreed that he
should launch a war on corrupt officials. Every hand
shot into the air. Then Shevardnadze asked the
deputies to keep their arms raised as he circled the
room checking wrists. Anyone wearing something
better than a cheap Soviet timepiece was fired.
Shevardnadze
supported intellectuals when other Communist leaders
tried to put them in prison. During the Brezhnev era,
films that one could
never see in Moscow were routinely - if discreetly -
on view in Tbilisi. The filmmaker Tengiz Abuladze, who
began writing his anti-Stalinist epic "Repentance" in
1981, never considered making the film until
Shevardnadze encouraged him to proceed.
"This
is a Shakespearean sort of country," Georgia's
best-known director, Robert Sturua, said when I spoke
with him one evening in Tbilisi. "And our leader
is the most Shakespearean among us, with all his flaws
and all the gifts. Shevardnadze supported us when it
was impossible for him to do it. You can't imagine how
rare it was
- a Communist with respect for free speech."
When
Shevardnadze was named Foreign Minister, he had rarely
been out of the Soviet Union, and many diplomats were
shocked. He asserted
himself immediately, though, leading the reformist
wing of Gorbachev's politburo; and in the period
between 1988 and 1990 he traveled frequently between
Moscow and Washington, entering into a remarkably open
personal relationship with his American counterpart,
James Baker.
"I
decided by May of '89 that this was somebody whose
word was good, whom you could trust completely,"
Baker said. "He felt like something dramatic was
going to come, and that they ought to make it happen
in an orderly and peaceful way."
But
by December of 1990, Gorbachev's most passionate
idealist had had enough of the reactionary intrigue in
the Kremlin. He appeared before the Congress of
People's Deputies and announced that a
"dictatorship is coming," and that he had no
choice but to resign.
The
warning seemed alarmist, but it presaged the coup
attempt of August 1991. "Let this be my protest
against what is happening," Shevardnadze told the
startled deputies before walking out of the hall.
The speech marked the end of Gorbachev's most
progressive period of leadership. Within two years,
Shevardnadze would return to Georgia, and find
himself in charge of a government so medieval and
divided that legislators had to be forbidden to carry
guns into Parliament. Yet by 1995 - when the car
bomb exploded in Tbilisi - Shevardnadze, by
negotiating, compromising with gangsters, doing
everything but actually waging another war, had
managed to pull
Georgia back from the edge of anarchy.
Except
for the protruding, burning hazel eyes and the
occasionally errant wisps of white hair - which give
him a haunted look - Eduard Shevardnadze
is an open and
unassuming man. He is quiet and reflective, and I
couldn't find an aide who remembered the last time he
had raised his voice. He always seems to be alone,
even when he is not. In Tbilisi, his routine seldom
varies: each morning at eight-thirty, he settles into
an armor-plated Mercedes that the German government
donated after the first attempt on his life (there was
another, in 1998). Shevardnadze rarely gets home
before 10 P.M. His friends are his colleagues. He
sometimes attends the opening of a play or a concert
with his wife, Nanuli. But he does almost nothing but
work. (I asked one of his closest aides, Peter
Mamradze, if I could spend some time with Shevardnadze
outside the office. He looked at me, smiled, and said,
"Not unless you plan to sleep with him.")
After
Shevardnadze resigned and the Soviet Union collapsed,
he could have embarked on an entirely new life. He was
invited to lecture for handsome fees at universities
around the world; he was offered foundation jobs. None
of it appealed to him. He spent most of 1991 at a
Moscow think tank that he had founded and then
returned, briefly, to his position at the Foreign
Ministry.
By then, though, the chemistry between him and
Gorbachev was gone, and he soon left for good. After
that, for whatever reason - patriotism, ego, pride, or,
more likely, a mixture of them all - Shevardnadze felt
that he had only one choice. "I thought about
what I would do next," he told his longtime aide
and interpreter, Pavel Palezchenko. "Return to
Georgia? Well, a different kind of people are in
charge there now, and the attitude toward me has
changed. But I cannot retire and do nothing."
Georgia's
first post-soviet President, the mystical nationalist
fanatic Zviad Gamsakhurdia, had driven the nation into
civil war. By the fall of 1991, he couldn't control
the fighting on the streets of his own capital;
eventually, a Mafia dandy named Jaba Ioseliani, who
ran a gang called the Mkhedrioni - Horsemen -overcome
Gamsakhurdia, who fled in January 1992, to the Chechen
capital, Grozny, across the mountain pass that serves
as the border between Georgia and Russia. By Now
Year's Eve in 1993, under circumstances that have
never been fully explained, Gamsakhurdia either
committed suicide or was killed. By then, Ioseliani
and his gang were in charge.
Even
in the rich tradition of Caucasian bandits, loseliani
stands out: he had spent much of his life in prison,
dressed like an industrial baron, and was a
playwright, novelist, and former drama teacher. He is
known in Tbilisi as both a Mafia leader and a
politician, and, in his case, it is impossible to
separate the two. In 1991, many people had tried to
persuade Shevardnadze to return to Georgia, but while
Garnsakhurdia remained in office he didn't want to
appear to be planning a coup. A year later, when
Shevardnadze arrived in Tbilisi, Ioseliani became his
chief confidant and emissary to international
meetings. Ioseliani and his crew may have been venal,
but they provided the force that Shevardnadze needed
to defeat
gangs that were more dangerous.
By
then, Georgia was falling apart. Warfare had taken
hold in the province of South Ossetia. It was worse in
Abkhazia, where Muslim separatists had expelled two
hundred thousand ethnic Georgians. The battle there
continued for nearly two years, and Shevardnadze found
himself in the middle of it. When the Abkhazian
capital, Sukhumi, finally fell, in the autumn of 1993,
Shevardnadze, who not long before had had millions of
men and thousands of nuclear weapons at his disposal,
stood sweating in muddied combat fatigues and watched
helplessly as young Georgian soldiers bled to death
beside him. When I asked him how he felt about
returning from Moscow, he replied, "It felt like
I had been dipped in boiling tar."
Shevardnadze
has often spoken about what he had to do to end
Georgia's civil war, and his relationship with
Ioseliani was his most obvious compromise. It was an
alliance that was destined to unravel. Shevardnadze
tried to disband the Mkhedrioni
as early as 1993, but
he wasn't successful
until after the first assassination attempt, in
1995. At that point, Ioseliani was sent to prison,
although no evidence of his involvement was ever
produced.
Ioseliani,
who is in his early seventies, was released after
Shevardnadze's reelection this spring, and not long ago I went to visit him at his sporty new clubhouse,
which was
built in the middle
of one of Tbilisi's most popular parks. He wore a
double‑breasted linen jacket over a fashionable
shirt with no collar; his gray hair was perfectly
trimmed, as were his fingernails. I asked him
if he had anything to do with the 1995
assassination attempt. He spat on the floor, focused
his eyes on me, and said, "Believe me, I wouldn't
have missed."
Georgia's
appeal to the West is obvious: it is a Christian
enclave in a largely Muslim part of the world, and,
because it is able to accommodate pipelines running
from Baku to Turkey, it can help the West diversify
its oil supply while increasing its influence in
Central Asia. Turning the country into a buffer to
keep Russia from asserting imperialistic ambitions
would be an extra benefit. Shevardnadze works hard at
the task; Georgia has gained entry to the Council of
Europe, and Shevardnadze has said that in a few years
he will "knock on NATO's
door," a goal that even he realizes
Georgia is unlikely to achieve.
Georgia
belongs more to the West than any other Asian country,
yet it takes more of its heritage from the steppes
than any Western nation. As Rezo Gabriadze, a
prominent director and screenwriter, said to me one
night as we sipped Turkish coffee in the cafe that he
owns in Tbilisi's old town, "Georgia is not Asia
and it's not Europe. It is part of a Mediterranean
culture that begins in Gibraltar and ends in my
cafe."
The
Western presence, however, is growing rapidly. The
streets of Tbilisi are crammed with S.U.V.s driven by
international officials, both American and European;
there are also representatives of many
humanitarian‑aid groups and various agencies of
the United Nations, as well as a full complement of
oilmen, hustlers, development experts, communications
specialists, and spies. At nearly every meal, the
dining room at Betsy's - Tbilisi's best guesthouse -
is filled with the sounds of Americans cutting deals.
Five
years ago, it was often hard to book a call to Moscow.
Now there are cell phones in backpacks, on bicycles,
and in cars. FedEx delivers. Georgian cuisine remains
popular, but there are also French, Chinese, and
Central Asian restaurants in the capital. When I was
in town, performances of ballet, opera, and several
plays sold out each night, including Robert Sturua’s
production of "Hamlet," in the Rustaveli
Theatre. A puppet-theatre group that Gabriadze directs
staged a lyrical version of "The Battle of
Stalingrad" in a tiny theatre that he and his
troupe built themselves. Earlier this month, the group
brought the show – a metaphor for the death of the
Soviet Union - to the Kennedy Center in Washington.
Just
as Georgia's wars of separatism and identity were
ending, in 1994, Chechnya - which shares Georgia's
only border with Russia and has unhappily been a part
of its empire for three hundred years - asserted
its independence. Chechen rebels fought the
Russian Army for two years before driving forty
thousand weary soldiers from their territory, and the
war often threatened to spill over the mountains and
into Georgia. The conflict was a reminder of how
fragile peace was in the Caucasus, and of the extent
to which Russia still seeks to control the region.
Moscow has helped start two of Georgia's civil wars in
the past ten years, and the Russian military maintains
four bases on Georgian territory.
Georgia
managed to remain aloof during the previous Chechen
conflict, but it has been harder this time. Last year,
when the war started again, the Russians tried to
station troops in the Pankisi Gorge, a narrow valley
that leads to the mountain pass where Georgia ends and
Chechnya begins. The Russians were quickly rebuffed by
Shevardnadze, who understands that neutrality is his
only hope of staving off a full-blown war throughout
the Caucasus. But the Russian generals have kept up
the pressure, and at least twice in the past year
bombs have fallen on Georgian villages.
"It
is literally the case that no high level meeting takes
place between American and Russian officials without
the word "Georgia" being mentioned,”
Strobe Talbott, the Deputy Secretary of State, told me
recently. "When we talk to Russia, we talk about
red lines. Those are fines it must not cross. Well,
the brightest of the red lines that exist is the
border between Chechnya and Georgia."
The gorge
has long been
a transit
point for drugs and arms on their way from
Afghanistan to Chechnya and beyond. Many of the people
who live there immigrated from Chechnya decades ago
and, egged on by local warlords, they resent the
humanitarian aid that is available for the new Chechen
refugees.
I
drove up from Tbilisi one morning, arriving after a
shoot-out in which eight gang members had died. People
were on edge. Although the refugee camps are supposed
to admit only women, children, and old men, the first
thing that caught my eye along the dusty trails -
just thirty miles from the battlefields - was
two groups of young men cruising around in Mercedes
S600s, with smoked mirrors and Chechen flags pasted on
the back. The scene in the gorge was much like what
you saw in Grozny, in 1994, on the eve of the first
war: markets full of bright‑red plastic buckets,
wheels of cheese the size of tires, rusted tools,
ancient spare parts - all spread out on tables as if
they were Swiss watches. There were pictures of the
late Chechen leader Dzhokhar Dudaycv and enough wolf
insignias – the sign of the Chechen fighter - to
outfit an army. The gorge was like Grozny in another
way, too: you could sense the violence.
I
had last been in those mountains in 1996, right after
the Russians had been chased out. I had driven from
Grozny through the peaks to Itum-Kale, fifteen miles
from the Georgian border. There I watched Chechen
elders prostrate themselves toward Mecca, thanking God
for helping to destroy their enemy. It was a late-fall
day, and
after the prayers several sheep were boiled in huge
cauldrons on the open fields.
By
the fall of 1999, the Russian generals had adopted the
tactics of General Baratinsky, who in defeating the
Chechen leader Imam Shamil, in 1859, instructed his
soldiers to level every hamlet, village, and
lean‑to they could find. Russian paratroopers
have now dug in throughout the mountains. On the
Georgian side of the border, particularly at night,
one can listen as SU 25s attempt to incinerate the
last few thousand rebels.
Now,
as the gorge fills with the detritus of war, the
pressure on Georgia has grown intense. Moscow's
military leaders have accused Tbilisi of, among other
things, providing training camps for rebels, hiding
members of Osama bin Laden's terrorist group,
transporting Taliban fighters to help the Chechens,
and supplying the Chechens with guns. The charges have
been refuted by every official observer who has
visited, yet Moscow persists.
"When
they accuse us of using helicopters to ferry rebels to
the Chechen battle zone," Shevardnadze told me,
"the Russians apparently believe I am too proud
to admit that I am the leader of a country that does
not have a single helicopter that works well enough to
do any such thing."
Last
April, Shevardnadze was elected to a second term with
more than eighty percent of the vote. There was no
real opposition, and surely he would have won a fair
and open election. But the contest was neither fair
nor open. Western and local observers complained
loudly about tampering; and they found that many
polling places in contested regions were closed
illegally and that at least some votes were faked by
supporters of the President.
A
story soon circulated that says much about the
disheartening journey of the leader who once ripped
watches from the arms of his Communist colleagues. The
day after the election, Shevardnadze was approached by
Peter Mamradze, who is the closest thing he has to a
chief of staff.
"'There
is good news and there is bad news,” Mamradze told
him. "The good news is that you won in a
landslide."
"And
the bad news?" Shevardnadze asked.
"Nobody
voted for you," Mamradze replied. (I assumed that
the story was apocryphal, but I asked the extremely
good-natured Mamradze about it anyway. He laughed and
said, "Come on, you know he got some
votes.")
It
is perhaps unfair to ask any single person to carry
the weight of a nation, but for more than a decade
Shevardnadze has been widely seen as the solution to
all of Georgia's problems. Increasingly, however, and
perhaps inevitably, many people also regard him as a
principal cause. To achieve peace, he traded the
idealism of his Gorbachev years for the pragmatism
needed to bargain with warlords. If the warlords no
longer run the country, a small group of wealthy and
dishonest plutocrats do. Pensions average seven
dollars a month and are infrequently paid. There is no
real public sector. The government has made it easy
for a few well-connected businessmen to snap up
valuable state properties for almost nothing.
Shevardnadze's son-in-law received a license to run
one of Georgia's mobile-phone companies for fifteen
dollars - far less than it would have cost him to buy
a telephone. "Under Georgian law, you cannot say
that the sale of a mobile phone license for fifteen
dollars is technically illegal," Christopher
Lane, the International
Monetary
Fund representative in Tbilisi
told me. "It's terribly imprudent, but
it's not a crime."
There
are as many police officers on the streets of Tbilisi
as there are in New York, which has at least eight
times the population of Tbilisi. Policemen are paid
almost nothing, so they attempt to scratch out a
living by shaking down motorists; they are squeegee
men with badges. I was pulled over three times in ten
days. "I don't get paid, and I have four
children," one officer explained. "Just give
me five laris" - about two and a half dollars -
"and you can go." To get into university one
has to pay a bribe, to get into the best courses you
pay again. Then there are fees for the tests (to take
them and to pass them) and fees to graduate.
Shevardnadze
knows all this. When I sat down with him at a large
oval table in the anteroom outside his office, he said
gravely, "We are facing a situation of
intolerable corruption. It is not connected with or
dependent upon one or two ministers or even the whole
government of Georgia .... The entire system was
created full of corruption. They are flourishing, and
they are sucking blood from the rest of society. They
are killing this nation." He pounded the table
hard enough to rattle the tea glasses.
I
asked him if he ever looked back with longing at his
time away from Tbilisi. "I remember those years
with the greatest pride," he said. "But my
position today, being President of Georgia, is the
highest post I have ever held. And it is the post that
I want to define me."
When
Gorbachev was in power, he loved to talk during
interviews. Shevardnadze is far less voluble, but one
walks away feeling that he has shared his deepest
thoughts and doubts. He is so skilled at creating this
impression that a visitor can be dazzled. Shevardnadze
decries the corruption that threatens to ruin Georgia,
but in important ways he is Georgia. If corruption is
rampant, who else could possibly stop it? Apart from
complaining, Shevardnadze has in fact done little.
Plans are released and ignored. Speeches are delivered
and forgotten. No senior officials have gone to jail,
and only a few have been fired. Breaking the law is
acceptable. When a landlord shows a prospective tenant
an apartment in Tbilisi, he will always point out the
electrical meter, the phone connection, and the
"illegal line," for stealing electricity
when there is a blackout, as there has been every day this winter, or when the bill has gone unpaid.
For
many years, Shevardnadze managed to avoid the fate of
Gorbachev and Yeltsin, who were regarded abroad as
visionaries but were detested at home. Shevardnadze
used to be met with cries of "Nas Eduard
"- "Our Eduard” - nearly everywhere he
went. No longer. "The man saved Georgia, and I
doubt that anyone else could have done it," Ghia
Nodia, who runs a think tank called the Caucasian
Institute for Peace, Democracy and Development, told
me. "But it's time already to say the truth.
Eduard Shevardnadze has lost touch completely with
this country. He is an old power addict, and his
reputation is at the lowest it has ever been."
"Te truth is that
Georgia is as corrupt as any place you will ever
see," Gela Charkviani told me when I went to see
him one morning at the State Chancellery. Charkviani,
no critic of the regime, is one of Shevardnadze's
oldest allies and his senior adviser on foreign
affairs. He is a former sociology professor, with
thick eyebrows and thinning hair; his father, Kandida,
was a loyal aide to Lavrenty Beria, Staliin's KG.B.
chief. "Nobody ever had democracy in this part of
the world," Charkviani said. "It doesn’t
come naturally to us."
Not
long ago, a young television correspondent named Akaki
Gogichaishvili began his broadcast this way:
"International experts have concluded that, owing
to corruption, the state budget is losing an annual
one billion laris from customs. This sum is equal to
the official state budget, which means that Georgia
has two budgets - the official one, which is applied
to five million citizens, and an unofficial budget,
which is exploited by fewer than a hundred high
ranking officials."
That
report - and others that the thirty-four-fear-old
correspondent presents each week on his show, which is
called "60 Minutes" - has startled the
country. Gogichaishvili is Georgia's first true
investigative television journalist, and he regularly
infuriates Shevardnadze. In fact, last summer he
called a news conference to announce that several
government officials had told him to run for his life,
and in July the chairman of the Helsinki Commission
met with Gogichaishvili in Washington and denounced
the government's efforts at intimidation.
Akaki
- as he is called by everyone - looks a bit like a
thin, intellectual Andre Agassi. His head is shaved
and his black eyes are the size of walnuts. He studied
geology at the university in Tbilisi and then won a
scholarship to study journalism and politics at Duke
University, before working for a while in Washington.
Each week he and his colleagues attack various
privileged groups, usually in great detail, and with
supporting documents in hand. The show sometimes feels
breathless, but it never roams far from the facts.
Recently,
Akaki went after one of Shevardnadze's favorite
groups, the union of professional writers, which he
accused of embezzlement. Within weeks, the security
establishment of Georgia - including the Interior
Ministry and the office of the general prosecutor -
were ordered to investigate Akaki's work and his life.
"My
bosses have been amazing," Akaki told me. "I
made it clear to everyone on the show that if they
leave I will understand. Not one has gone. Old ladies
come up on the street and kiss me."
The
only time I saw Shevardnadze at a loss for words was
when I asked him about "60 Minutes." For a
long while, he was silent. "Please believe
me," he said finally. "It was I who created
the atmosphere for the newly emerged free press. I
have fixed meetings every Monday with the press. Does
your President do that? Everyone is invited, and
anyone can ask any question."
He
took a sip of tea and went on, "My popularity is
not what I would desire. This hungry population,
with arrears in wages, pensions, unemployment - it's
terrible. How can I betray these people and go home?
For me, of course, the best thing would be to go home,
sit silently, write my memoirs, and remember the great
events that I have seen in my life." I suggested
that might bore him. "Oh no, it would be
wonderful. My life is hell. It's a nightmare. Every
day I am burned again. When I came to Tbilisi, I had
the feeling that
I
had dropped myself into an inferno. Even now I feel
that I am swimming in water that is far too hot. It is
hard, it
is
always hard, and it always will be."
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